It's been a really tough week for me and my family, life & daily routine thrown totally off-track. First, my Tok (who stays right next to my house) had a serious skin infection (stail orang tua-tua la, senang kata, 'kayap') and I've been taking turns with my aunties to look after her. It's really heartbreaking seeing her in so much pain so we try to make her as comfortable as possible and keep her morale up. I was informed that this penyakit kayap ni is really hard to go away.
Then, there's a few cases of HFMD infection at Nunu's school and her cousin Eby, and Danish got it pretty bad. MIL advised me not to send Nunu to the school until the teachers do something about it. So Nunu has been hanging out with me for 4 days straight. I'm working on several projects that needs me to be in front of the lappie a lot, so I suppose she was much neglected & got her brain spoiled rotten by the idiot box. Not that she complains or anything, but there were times when she got bored and begs me to play with her. Or acts really rambunctious and unnecessarily messes up the whole house. Yeah yeah, she's still a kid and what kid doesn't mess up the house, but there were times when we expect her to follow some simple instructions but she was just asking for that swat on the bottom.
This is her today on my office couch. I don't know why she was so tired/sleepy today coz it wasn't even noon yet and she usually can go without a nap until night time. But today, she fell asleep and I felt so sorry for her for having such a disorganized mom. If this happens a lot, then I'd really need to get her something more comfortable, like a nap mat maybe.
Learning at home didn't go well as planned . She got bored with starfall.com and isn't exactly excited with all those worksheet I printed for her. I couldn't force her right, so that has taken a backseat. Same goes with her Bacalah Anakku lessons. She's now in Book 2 at school but I insisted that she started all over again with me at home. I was a total jerk a few times because I couldn't keep my temper in check while teaching her. Grrr... really disappointed with myself.
Probably I'm just not cut out to be WAHM. Four days at home with Nunu trying to get EVERYTHING done is just too frustrating. For one thing, laundry work is never done, I should just lug my laundry bag to the dhobby wallah and let them worry about it. I could never stay up to do any work coz putting Nunu to sleep just zaps whatever energy left in me. I'd only wake up in the morning just in time to perform Subuh prayers and send Martian off to work, but most times I just don't feel like waking up at all. Then I'd shower and while still in my towel wrap and dripping wet hair, I'd be in front of the lappie until Nunu wakes up. House chores is done in between meals, taking care of Tok, entertaining guests who came to visit, office work, errands and playground trips - and the house still looks like a dump coz I couldn't do it all alone :(
But I'm not saying that we didn't have any fun at all. We did, whenever I'm bored, I'd go over to Nunu and bully her (or swat her bottom playfully for no reason), and she'd do the same to me a few minutes later. We played some piano and finally checked out a nearby park (photos soon) - but at the end of the day, I still feel defeated and tired to the bones. This is certainly not good for my heart, and coffee just don't do me any good.
p/s: A testament of how frazzled I am, my staff just asked me whether I've locked our office grill today, and I just realized that I didn't. Now he has to go back to the office to lock it! Arrrrghhh....!
Then, there's a few cases of HFMD infection at Nunu's school and her cousin Eby, and Danish got it pretty bad. MIL advised me not to send Nunu to the school until the teachers do something about it. So Nunu has been hanging out with me for 4 days straight. I'm working on several projects that needs me to be in front of the lappie a lot, so I suppose she was much neglected & got her brain spoiled rotten by the idiot box. Not that she complains or anything, but there were times when she got bored and begs me to play with her. Or acts really rambunctious and unnecessarily messes up the whole house. Yeah yeah, she's still a kid and what kid doesn't mess up the house, but there were times when we expect her to follow some simple instructions but she was just asking for that swat on the bottom.
This is her today on my office couch. I don't know why she was so tired/sleepy today coz it wasn't even noon yet and she usually can go without a nap until night time. But today, she fell asleep and I felt so sorry for her for having such a disorganized mom. If this happens a lot, then I'd really need to get her something more comfortable, like a nap mat maybe.
Learning at home didn't go well as planned . She got bored with starfall.com and isn't exactly excited with all those worksheet I printed for her. I couldn't force her right, so that has taken a backseat. Same goes with her Bacalah Anakku lessons. She's now in Book 2 at school but I insisted that she started all over again with me at home. I was a total jerk a few times because I couldn't keep my temper in check while teaching her. Grrr... really disappointed with myself.
Probably I'm just not cut out to be WAHM. Four days at home with Nunu trying to get EVERYTHING done is just too frustrating. For one thing, laundry work is never done, I should just lug my laundry bag to the dhobby wallah and let them worry about it. I could never stay up to do any work coz putting Nunu to sleep just zaps whatever energy left in me. I'd only wake up in the morning just in time to perform Subuh prayers and send Martian off to work, but most times I just don't feel like waking up at all. Then I'd shower and while still in my towel wrap and dripping wet hair, I'd be in front of the lappie until Nunu wakes up. House chores is done in between meals, taking care of Tok, entertaining guests who came to visit, office work, errands and playground trips - and the house still looks like a dump coz I couldn't do it all alone :(
But I'm not saying that we didn't have any fun at all. We did, whenever I'm bored, I'd go over to Nunu and bully her (or swat her bottom playfully for no reason), and she'd do the same to me a few minutes later. We played some piano and finally checked out a nearby park (photos soon) - but at the end of the day, I still feel defeated and tired to the bones. This is certainly not good for my heart, and coffee just don't do me any good.
p/s: A testament of how frazzled I am, my staff just asked me whether I've locked our office grill today, and I just realized that I didn't. Now he has to go back to the office to lock it! Arrrrghhh....!
4 comments:
know what u mean and know how you feel. Been there done that. (well, except for caring for your Tok part). when things get pretty hectic and kids get pretty neglected, I just stop doing what i do for a while and spend the little time i have with the kids even if joining them in front of the idiot box. It helps to melt the tension a way, a bit at least...
It will pass... :)
gosh. this sounds bad. i really feel for u. hang in there anne. insyaallah it'll pass before u could even catch a breath.
anne, the kayap is bad eh? i think my cousin got it once like long time ago, tapi eventually it went away lah. i tak sure what kind of treatment she got though. hope your tok will get well soon.
just hang in there k!
u know what babe? i have the exact same sentiment. i LOVE and ADORE my kid to bits, but i KNOW for a fact i cannot be with her 24 hours a day. i'll definitely go insane. it's much much better this way, i see her for a few hours each day and i miss her at work. that way, i love her much better and i am more patient with her. kalau dah depan mata 24 hours, sure nak marahhhhh je and my fuse would be damn short hehehe. lain2 org lain2 kan
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